This pain

I want THIS pain to propel me forward; not to paralyze me.  I am changed forever; I am different.

But I want the change to be a more fearless me, a world traveler, an entrepreneur, a philanthropist.

I want to have more faith; not less.

They say I have a new normal now.  But I want this new normal to include closer relationships with God and with people, more faith, dreams coming true.

I don't want this new normal to be about pain and hiding under my bed.

I want to use this pain...all of it to propel me forward into a bright future.

Amen.